A year ago yesterday my dude JayJay passed away.

And I won't ever understand why.
Medically, I guess I understand.
But reality, I don't.

See, JayJay was the epitomy of a cool kid. He was 17. He was playing basketball before school and his heart just stopped and he died. He was healthy, athletic, fun loving, worked for non-profit organizations, cared about the community, lived in an area where you would be thankful that other young men had him as a role model. Because of his race, gender, age, and area that he lived in, people kept asking me if he got shot. He didn't. If he had been shot, that would be another story. It would almost be "explained" in a sense....for lack of better words. But no, he had an un-diagnosed heart condition, and he just died. His funeral was the saddest thing I've ever witnessed. He was truly a good kid. I think about JayJay every day. The fact that someone so lively, so young, and so amazing can just die like that. Out of nowhere. With no signs, pretty much for no reason. That is the day I truly learned not to take anything in life for granted. June 23, 2008. It keeps me up at night sometimes. :/

But the point is, people just don't value what they have. Clearly, something like what happened to JayJay could happen to any of us. But still, people go around making enemies, holding grudges, and judging other people. See, I decided to change my life. No, It didn't happen the day, week or even month that JayJay died. It was gradual. It's a scary thought to know that someones life can end in just a heartbeat, and they could be gone forever with no signs that the end was near. Make sure you do like Alicia Keys says, and whenever your with loved ones, or even respected ones, treat each moment as if you'll never see them again!

I wanted to jot this down so I could store it somewhere. Thanks.

RIP JayJay 1/24/91-6/23/08

THROWBACK OF THE WEEK!

"Neva Get Enough"

3LW feat. Lil Wayne

2002

Lmao, this is after Adrienne and Keeley kicked out the third chick, I remember being mad about it. And check out lil ass bug-eyed looking Lil Wayne. Weezy!

Quick thought....

90 people get the Swine Flu and everybody wants to wear a mask. A million people have AIDS and no one wants to wear a condom.

WORD.

THROWBACK OF THE WEEK!

Boyz II Men

"Motown Philly"

1991

This was my ishhhhhh when I was little.

We even had a dance to it lol.

PS. There was a white kid at the Celtic's game yesterday with a high top fade. Pretty sweet.

LISTEN TO THIS TRACK!

SMOKING GUN!

THROW BACK OF THE WEEK!

IMMATURE

"WE GOT IT"

Off the Album "We Got It" 1995

LOL, CHECK OUT MARQUES!

FIRST POST AND THROWBACK OF THE WEEK!

Okay, this being my first post, let me say a few introductory words. First off, those of you who may have known me in high school or at Virginia Wesleyan College, I guarantee that you don't know me anymore. Don't believe me? Read about me! You'll be surprised. If you choose to continue reading any of this, I ask that you set forth with no preconceived notions of the person who produced this blog. My dude, Ozzy, talked me into starting one of these things, and I have to admit, I'm already enjoying it. I love words, I love to write, anything. It's something I'm really kind of getting back in touch with, so this is a good start to that.

As the first little "update" on my life, I would like to thank anyone who has been there for me in the past two months. The past two months have honestly been two of the most difficult months of my life. Whether you had any idea what I was going through behind the scenes or not (I pretty much kept things on the low), if you were one of the select few people that had a part in keeping me grounded recently, then I appreciate YOU!


THROW BACK OF THE WEEK! ::




Erykah Badu

"Next Lifetime"

Of the album Baduizm (1997)

If you don't know it.....LISTEN!

If you do.....REFRESH YOUR MEMORY!

And finally....a little light poetry I wrote.....


Symphony

I've created a sort of masterpiece from the depths within my mind,
It's sprung from inspiration that I never thought I'd find.
See, I can't explain the overflowing thoughts living in my head,
But it seems as though you may have woken a part of me once dead.
I never uttered maybe, someday, possibly, I could,
Instead I battled off the idea that inevitably I would.

I still can't seem to fathom how I started singing this new song,
But my heart is calmed in knowing that you're singing right along.
Now, I know my pitch is quite off key and my tempo is too slow,
But I know the lyrics by memory, every so, fa, me, rae, doe.
Your loyalty, trust, companionship and utter love for me,
Seem to fit so perfectly into our lovely symphony.

Take my hand, we'll dance along to the music that we make,
Please don't mind the audience, they thrive off our mistakes.
This may take some practice til the day it's all down pat,
And by then they will admire from the seats in which they've sat.
Don't expect acknowledgement, applause will never come,
For you and I are entertainers in a show that is never done.